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 那似乎是知識婦女夢中的情景——獨自一人,隻一個人,在房間裏靜靜地讀書,沒有家務孩子瑣事的種種幹擾,嘈雜的市聲和煩心的爭吵都離她遠去。她手裏的書本就是她的整個世界,她隻同自己的心靈對話。

§讀書的女人

那似乎是知識婦女夢中的情景——獨自一人,隻一個人,在房間裏靜靜地讀書,沒有家務孩子瑣事的種種幹擾,嘈雜的市聲和煩心的爭吵都離她遠去。她手裏的書本就是她的整個世界,她隻同自己的心靈對話。

讀書的女人是安靜的。她沉浸在文字編織的故事之海中,用眼睛做槳劃開波浪,去尋找遙遠的精神彼岸。她沒有時間嘮叨饒舌、沒有時間撥弄是非,就連翻動書頁都是輕輕的,像微風吹過草地。書本像一道隔牆,把外界的噪音都攔住了,但她的眼睛卻能分辨書本上最細微的聲音,並用眼淚作為應答。

讀書的女人是辛苦的。她不是那幅畫中17世紀的閑婦。21世紀的女人天天要趕著上班回家還有做不完的家務。她省下買時裝買化妝品的錢用來買書,等丈夫孩子睡下了,從自己好夢的時間裏摳出一塊來讀書。無論買書還是讀書,付的都是血汗,時時透支,要用未來賒賬。一個女人若是愛家也愛書,便是苦海無邊了。

讀書的女人是愚蠢的。她分不清書本和現實的區別,以為書中的故事都發生在她的生活中,常常把書中的人物當成了自己。讀書的女人對別人的事情頭頭是道,動輒可引書上的警句來教導他人,但對自己的事情卻是暈頭轉向雲裏霧裏,用書本上的經驗來對付現實往往錯上加錯。

但讀書的女人終究是幸福的。理性的思考給予她屬於自己的頭腦,女人的神韻裏就有了坦然和自信。知識為她過濾塵俗的痛苦,使她有力量抵禦物質的誘惑,並超越虛浮的滿足而變得強大豐富。

渴望讀書,從浩瀚的書海中挑選出適合自己或是自己喜歡的書。在下著小雨的清晨和刮風的黃昏,在大雪紛揚的冬日和柳絮飄飛的春天,若是再有一杯冒著嫋嫋熱氣的清茶呢。常常憧憬著在開滿櫻花的樹下、在綠草茵茵的河邊、在海邊的沙灘或是驚濤拍岸的礁石上,一個人抱著書,讀到書我兩忘。間或有蝴蝶或小鳥從頭頂飛過,遠處飄來淡淡的花香——那也就是關於浪漫的極致想像了。

實際上,幾十年真實的讀書情形,卻毫無詩意可言。在童年暑假的涼席和寒假的被窩裏,在連隊宿舍的油燈和山林帳篷的燭光下,在旅途中肮髒的火車站,在擁擠不堪的居所嘎嘎作響的破椅上。沒有書房的日子更激起瘋狂讀書的欲望,因為心靈的饑餓,到後來,就成為一種吞噬文字的生理需要和慣性了。

曾說過讀書分為兩類,一種是寫作的實用性需要——瀏覽優秀的文學作品以尋找差距,了解當下新作品的動向和特色以作參考,創作中所遇到的專業性問題需要補充知識,包括理論書籍和各種字典辭典和典籍。但我更喜歡另一種閱讀,那種看似與寫作無關的閱讀,自然科學哲學藝術以及傳記。你讀它根本不為什麼而僅僅隻是因為喜歡,它看上去對你毫無用處但卻如森林氧吧和甘泉,改善你的呼吸和血液,改造你的知識結構與思維空間。它的滲透作用是長遠而無形的,沒有任何急功近利和立竿見影的打算。如果說前一種閱讀是西醫治療,是當即見效的輸液點滴;那麼後一種閱讀就是中醫調理,是強身健體的滋養和補充。可惜我們總是有病才去求醫,在迷宮般的書城中,我們曾錯過了多少曲徑通幽深藏不露的好書廊。

讀書的女人如今擁有了屬於自己的書房。她常常望著滿滿的書架發愁,她發現一個人一生中即便不做任何工作,把所有的時間都用來讀書,也無法把世界上的好書讀完。這個發現真是令人絕望。

§以思想悅己

若是讀過張愛玲那篇《談女人》的散文,似乎所有關於女性話題的討論,都顯得有些多餘了。

將近半個世紀過去,女人安靜地匍匐在張愛玲的書本裏養息。紙頁雖已發黃,但女人的臉上卻連一絲皺紋都沒有。想必那女人的魂靈,已被真正懂得女人的女人勾勒了下來,所以這世界盡管顛來倒去,書裏的女人卻永遠不老。

張愛玲擅長用小說寫女人的故事。小說中的女人,都被她雙刃的刻刀,在筆下雕畫得入木三分。她偶爾撩開了故事的簾子,走出來直接戲說女人,那女人就成了她手裏的絕活,玲瓏剔透、淋漓盡致。

這篇散文的語言是直白而素樸的,像是不經意脫口而出的玩笑,帶著女人自嘲的口吻。不知是應把女人“當成不負責任的小東西”,還是把女人看得“太嚴重”。然而那雙殷殷注視著女人的眼睛,眨眼間便把女人的美德與惡習,透心透肺地看了個徹底。文章被作者一句句充滿智慧的諧語、一條條警醒銳敏的格言,絲絲縷縷地穿綴起來,卻絕不聲張,娓娓的喃喃的,似女人喝茶,從容地與人閑聊著,慢聲細語地說著些極平常的話語。

旁人聞著杯裏散出的不平常的香氣,將那茶端過來喝一口,才知那竟是一壇陳年好酒。

《談女人》原來是張愛玲讀一位無名氏所作的英文小冊子《貓》,以及觀看奧涅爾的戲劇《大神勃朗》之後,一時興起隨手寫下的讀後感。但幾十年後再被別人來讀,又讀出些經久不衰的意思。

無論是男人還是女人,走進張愛玲的作品,或嗔或笑,有的覺得痛快,有的還有話要說——因為女人從中看見一個真實的自己,而男人,則從中看見那個“女人的劣根性是男人一手造成的”男人。所以“完美的女人比男人更完美”,“而一個惡毒的女人就惡得無孔不入”。又調侃說:“女人的確是小性兒,矯情,作偽,眼光如豆,狐媚子,(正經女人雖然痛恨蕩婦,其實若有機會扮個妖婦的角色的話,沒有一個不躍躍欲試的。)聰明的女人對於這些批評並不加辯護……”

女人敢於對女人說出關於女人的真話,那個女人才是真正的女人。

文學藝術長久的生命和魅力,依然在於信守和表現你自己所感悟的真理。

張愛玲看來不是一個女權主義者。她對於女性自身的認識,更遵從世界的原生態和生命的自然本質。如江河入海,循著地形地勢的天然流向,絕不奢望將其納入主觀和人為的軌道。有好說好,有壞說壞,好好壞壞,任由女人自己去體味評說。言語間不乏詼諧又辛辣的批評,充盈著哀其不幸、憐其不爭的摯愛之心,比起那些激烈鼓吹女性統治世界、一味讚美女性卻無助於克服女性弱點的種種“主義”,倒更有實事求是、返本歸原的一份真誠善意。